Very Tired

I guess the last two FUN filled weekends have finally caught up with me.
The weekend that was too short with my DGSs and DD here for a visit and then the fun filled weekend that was filled with me just doing what I wanted to do.
Now the tireds and the depression starts.
I really dont know where this is going and it is hard to see through the tears that have started already.
No real cause for them - missing:
my DD and her WONDERFUL boys... I mean really missing them....
my other DDs and wondering how they are all doing....
the other 1/2 of my heart... I just dont know..the touch, the look, the need...
a friend that hasnt emailed in weeks now...
what I need from my DM...
No real cause for them - worrying:
about my DDs - will they be as happy as I was (most of the time) - will they have the love that I took for granted...
what about health - will their bones be strong or get stronger - will I be able to set any examples for them - will their bodies hold up for them...
will their spouses see them for who they are and take care of them always...
will they see themselves as they are and not as who they use to be....

So starts my prayer for tonight:
Please listen to all of our prayers, listen with an open heart and an open mind on what we are asking. Please keep ALL of our family safe, help us to understand the choices you have made for us. Please, let DDC see the way that she should travel...let DDT see the light at the end of the tunnel...let DDE see the how lucky she is in her life...let DDS have good results and keep by her side during her trials...let DSS know what path to follow...let me see myself for who I am...
Help all of us to keep you in our hearts and in our thoughts and to know that you have something planned for us even though we may not understand. ..........................................