I am still trying to be positive since I decided I am giving myself a year to get better and to heal myself. Oh, I know it will take the rest of my life but the year is a start.
It is hard to now see myself in my mind's eye like I was in my 40's and I wish I could get on a soap-box to tell everyone my thoughts. I wish that I would have listened to myself back those years. I took my own advice at times but then life would take over and I would get swept up again.
BEGIN NOW
DONT WAIT
Why didnt I listen to myself -
If there is one thing that you dont like about yourself WORK on it NOW, DONT WAIT.
I didnt like and dont like my weight - what did I do to change it all those years - change my hair color, change the style, change my makeup, bought some clothes. Nothing too the weight off, it was still there. I didnt work or try anything to work on the biggest problem.
So now I am trying to work on . Yes, I am like everyone else and would like to loose 100 pounds in the next month or even in the next year, to be the size I was when I got married. But would that make me happy either???? I have to be realistic in this and know that it is going to be hard to loose 5 pounds a month unless I really am good to myself and really work on it.
My wish is to go back to my 40's so I would have more time in my life to work on myself.
Remember, Dear Blog, to pamper yourself/myself - what ever it takes - get a massage, get a pedicure, get a manicure, have a day with friends, have a special dessert instead of dinner, soaking in the bath with the music blaring and a bottle of your favorite drink that you dont get all by yourself - anything that will make you feel special and put a smile on your face when you think of it. Think of things to feel better that doesnt cost anything. Go for a walk or play in the rain, make mud pies, sit for hours at Barnes & Noble amongst the wonder books and smelling the wonderful coffee. What ever it takes.. Just do it, even if it is only once every two months.. Renew your soul..
LOVE ME/YOU
Another thing I wish I would have listened to myself more was my significant other. I wish I would have stopped everything EVERY day to just listen to what he had to say about his day. Really listen. It doesnt matter if he listened to me or if he even asked how my day went. It made me feel good to just listen to his voice and have him share his life with me. It doesnt have to be more than 10 minutes of just listening.
Treat myself and my significant other to an affair - with each other. What excitement the first time of making love, of the exploration of each other - why do we loose that - again it is life taking over. Kids need this, the house needs that, my body needs sleep, the laundry needs to be folded - but what bout how the body and mind feel when all of those things are shut out and it is just the two of us. We had some of those times but never enough.
Now those times are gone and I cant ever get them back except the few we had and it is just a memory or a dream....
So, Dear Blog, I am off to pamper myself with a walk on the treadmill to see if I can burn a portion of a pound.
I will be back............................
2 comments:
Well said. All those other things will still be there when we're done taking care of what really matters.
Wow, what words of advice that we would all do well to heed. For me, I especially need to remember the time with DH and not let life drown those out. Thanks Linda for the reminder. I'm enjoying reading your blog. I see where Erin gets her writing talent!
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