I have not gotten back to you, Dear Blog, because there has been so much going on.
I finally got back to walking for a couple of days and did get my 3 miles in and didnt realise how much I missed the walking.
Then on the 8th I became a grandmother again and that has been much more important. Taking care of my DD and her DD and her older DD was the tops for me.
But I am back on schedule now and am going to get back to it. Today is a new day, even though it is raining and raining and raining. I will not melt, unfortunately, so I am going to go to a boring track that is only 1/4 mile and do a mile on it before I hit the longer harder track. The one that I particularly like is partially under water.
Sheldon is not doing well so we wont be walking together for awhile. He has some back problems, some kid problems and lost he companion. No not his wife, his puppy of 14 years. There is nothing more special to come home to someone who loves you unconditionally, be happy when you come home and will miss you when you leave. But you can only get that day in and day out with a puppy. You will get all the kisses you can stand, will want all the attention you can give and still want more, and wont want to leave your side. Who could ask for more than that.
My wounds are healing but my knees are not good. I think I am going to have to have them looked at. They dont hurt unless I go to kneel down and then the pain is unbearable. There are still a lot of bruising but the open sores are healing fast. A special friend recommended some wonderful suave to use on them.
So for now, know that I am getting after it again today and hope to keep it up along with keeping you up every day.
Grateful for:
babies, as they make the world a better place
mothers, as everyone should have one that cares
friends, to keep you going
Dr Pepper, to keep you going
water, to keep your body going
puppies, to keep you loved
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Sunday, September 7, 2008
I am back
This is mostly for me and if anyone else wants to read then that is fine. I definitely am not witty like my daughters or clever like them but it is a tale or maybe a tail.
I have started walking and trying to do three miles a day. It had taken me three weeks to work up that that but finally getting there, until this week.
I am going to post my progress for myself so I can see how I am doing. I have not lost any weight but just the fact that I am doing something and moving something it has to be good.
The first two weeks I only got to just under 35,000 steps, but I wasnt counting miles at that time. Then the next week I got it to 43,000 steps.
I really wanted to boost it up so I started counting miles and that worked better for me. Also I got a walking partner and that was the best move. I will call my walking partner Sheldon to protect his identity, not that it is a secret in our small town.
Sheldon is a great one to walk with. He keeps up the conversation and that makes the time and the steps go so much faster. He has also been good for me because he walks at my pace, or he did for the first week.
The 4th week I got up to three miles a day and one day 4 miles. So I was feeling pretty proud of myself.
Then came this last week. Sheldon and I met for walking and we did our first mile faster than my normal pace. I was glad that he was starting to push me without even saying anything about it. Then the next mile we went back to my pace. The weather didnt cooperate very well for us as it rained so much. Although he did say that he would go walking with me even if it was raining since no one else would.
The came Thursday.. the F-day for me. F as in fall day. I was thinking about my new week coming up while I was walking. My shin splints were bothering me and I was shuffling my feet and not paying attention and DOWN I went. Took a bite out of my palm and tore up my knee. The other hand is bruised and so is the knee. I have bruises on my elbows and the top of one foot. So no more walking for me for a few days.
But I am proud to say that I did get in 51,849 steps last week. And only made the 3 miles a day total at the end because I had two 4 mile days.
So, Dear Blog, I will keep you updated on my progress.
I have started walking and trying to do three miles a day. It had taken me three weeks to work up that that but finally getting there, until this week.
I am going to post my progress for myself so I can see how I am doing. I have not lost any weight but just the fact that I am doing something and moving something it has to be good.
The first two weeks I only got to just under 35,000 steps, but I wasnt counting miles at that time. Then the next week I got it to 43,000 steps.
I really wanted to boost it up so I started counting miles and that worked better for me. Also I got a walking partner and that was the best move. I will call my walking partner Sheldon to protect his identity, not that it is a secret in our small town.
Sheldon is a great one to walk with. He keeps up the conversation and that makes the time and the steps go so much faster. He has also been good for me because he walks at my pace, or he did for the first week.
The 4th week I got up to three miles a day and one day 4 miles. So I was feeling pretty proud of myself.
Then came this last week. Sheldon and I met for walking and we did our first mile faster than my normal pace. I was glad that he was starting to push me without even saying anything about it. Then the next mile we went back to my pace. The weather didnt cooperate very well for us as it rained so much. Although he did say that he would go walking with me even if it was raining since no one else would.
The came Thursday.. the F-day for me. F as in fall day. I was thinking about my new week coming up while I was walking. My shin splints were bothering me and I was shuffling my feet and not paying attention and DOWN I went. Took a bite out of my palm and tore up my knee. The other hand is bruised and so is the knee. I have bruises on my elbows and the top of one foot. So no more walking for me for a few days.
But I am proud to say that I did get in 51,849 steps last week. And only made the 3 miles a day total at the end because I had two 4 mile days.
So, Dear Blog, I will keep you updated on my progress.
I am grateful that I did not break anything but my pride.
I am grateful that the sun is shining but I would like a nice rain to go walking in as I feel it will be a cleansing walk. I am grateful that I am going to be a MEMO again tonight or tomorrow and that everyone is healthy right now.
I am grateful that I have Sheldon to walk and talk with.
Till next time..
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Long time away
I have had an eventful two months.
Cold after cold after cold. I would just think I was getting over it and here it was again. Like a bad penny you cant throw away.
I have a signed contract on my business so that is one positive thing.
What brought me here today was not any of those things, though. It was thinking of my friends. Talked to one on the phone today, one on the phone last night, emailed one this morning and will email two of them later today. But there is one that I dont know if I will ever talk to again or email again. Funny isnt it that it is that friend that I will miss the most.
Friends are precious things to have. And they all have different meanings in our lives. But it is all one word.. FRIEND
There is the casual male friend. We both know that we are comfortable with each others company, but do not demand anything from each other. He and I email about five times a week, see each other when there is a chance but other than that, we are just friends. No complications, no expectations, just there to talk to if we want to. We have know each other for about 15 years and know a lot about each other but it is still casual. And he and I agreed that it is all we needed out of our friendship.
There is the casual girl friend. Funny isnt it that one is a 'male' and one is a 'girl'. You cant say 'boy' friend without people thinking other things are involved. My 'girl' friend is one that we may not talk to weeks, never email, live across the street from each other, might see each other only once a month, but would do anything for each other. We dont know much about each others pasts but still know enough history that it is okay. We have some things in common but just generally like each other. There are a lot of things that make us not fit into each others lives but that is okay too.
There is another casual male friend. We havent know each other very long and it is just mostly through email and a couple of phone calls. We work for the same company and that is how we got to know each other from our first phone call about work. That phone call took about 5 minutes of work and lasted about 45 minutes of just talking. We are getting to know each other with out 20 questions, but we really only ask 2 at a time. I think it wouldnt take much for him to want it to be more because of some things that have been said, but I am definitely not ready for that step in our friendship. We live in different states and really dont have anything in common but work and a few people that we work with. That is okay though, that is what makes life interesting. To see what we might have in common but just getting to know someone.
There is another girl friend, that is totally different than any other. She and I have emailed for a few years, got to see each other once for a few days, talked for hours on the phone, but are still there for each other even when we dont email or talk for weeks. She has offered things in our friendship that I dont think I could ask of anyone else. Or even that any other girl friend would offer to help with. We have talked on many subjects and still have many more to talk about.
There is my best girl friend. We have know each other for 35 years or more. We have been though a lot together. Divorces, losses, kids, marriages, tears, moving, and just being there. There are still a lot of our pasts that we havent talked about but it isnt necessary to us. We know each other yesterday, today and tomorrow and that is enough. We can talk about anything but dont need to. We have a lot in common and enjoy just sitting there not talking or talking for hours. It would have been hard to make it in the last 15 years without her.
There are my daughters/friends. Yes my daughters are some of my best friend friends. We can talk about anything. Well let me clarify that...one will talk about things that another one wont and the other way around. So we each have our own unique relationship, but they are really my best friends along with being my daughters. So they arent just blood but friends by choice.
That brings me to my mom who has become a very good friend. We do talk about anything. My sister doesnt believe it and cant with either of us but we do talk about everything. She does not live close but we talk every night. I know that some day this will not be the case any longer and I will miss that very much. So I take advantage of it and talk and talk every night. She will always be my mom and friend and I will always talk to her even if she cant but she will still be there somewhere to listen.
All of this brings me to another friend. He knows who he is and other of my friends know who he is also. He knows that I would take this friendship to another level if it was possible but it isnt. He is another one that I can say anything to and everything to but he holds back on his side. Maybe it is his situation that he feels he cant say what he wants to. Or maybe it is that he doesnt want to say it and only wants to be friends forever. There have been hints of feelings but then it goes to nothing. No emails, nothing. We have known each other longer than any of my other friends. He knows most of my past and I know some of his past. He can hurt me more than any other of my friends and make me the happiest too. Our relationship is email with a few phone calls in the past. I know what I think friendship means but I dont know what it means to him. Isnt it strange that in some ways I feel like I know him so well but really dont know his mind.
So there you go. It is just a reflection on the different kinds of friends. Think about your own friends and how they differ. All of them are unique and special.
I am grateful for all my friends and their personalities and their relationships with me. I hope to be a better friend to each and every one of them every day. I hope that I am the kind of friend they want. It would also be interesting to see how they would say our friends is and what it means to them. Another thing to reflect on....
Cold after cold after cold. I would just think I was getting over it and here it was again. Like a bad penny you cant throw away.
I have a signed contract on my business so that is one positive thing.
What brought me here today was not any of those things, though. It was thinking of my friends. Talked to one on the phone today, one on the phone last night, emailed one this morning and will email two of them later today. But there is one that I dont know if I will ever talk to again or email again. Funny isnt it that it is that friend that I will miss the most.
Friends are precious things to have. And they all have different meanings in our lives. But it is all one word.. FRIEND
There is the casual male friend. We both know that we are comfortable with each others company, but do not demand anything from each other. He and I email about five times a week, see each other when there is a chance but other than that, we are just friends. No complications, no expectations, just there to talk to if we want to. We have know each other for about 15 years and know a lot about each other but it is still casual. And he and I agreed that it is all we needed out of our friendship.
There is the casual girl friend. Funny isnt it that one is a 'male' and one is a 'girl'. You cant say 'boy' friend without people thinking other things are involved. My 'girl' friend is one that we may not talk to weeks, never email, live across the street from each other, might see each other only once a month, but would do anything for each other. We dont know much about each others pasts but still know enough history that it is okay. We have some things in common but just generally like each other. There are a lot of things that make us not fit into each others lives but that is okay too.
There is another casual male friend. We havent know each other very long and it is just mostly through email and a couple of phone calls. We work for the same company and that is how we got to know each other from our first phone call about work. That phone call took about 5 minutes of work and lasted about 45 minutes of just talking. We are getting to know each other with out 20 questions, but we really only ask 2 at a time. I think it wouldnt take much for him to want it to be more because of some things that have been said, but I am definitely not ready for that step in our friendship. We live in different states and really dont have anything in common but work and a few people that we work with. That is okay though, that is what makes life interesting. To see what we might have in common but just getting to know someone.
There is another girl friend, that is totally different than any other. She and I have emailed for a few years, got to see each other once for a few days, talked for hours on the phone, but are still there for each other even when we dont email or talk for weeks. She has offered things in our friendship that I dont think I could ask of anyone else. Or even that any other girl friend would offer to help with. We have talked on many subjects and still have many more to talk about.
There is my best girl friend. We have know each other for 35 years or more. We have been though a lot together. Divorces, losses, kids, marriages, tears, moving, and just being there. There are still a lot of our pasts that we havent talked about but it isnt necessary to us. We know each other yesterday, today and tomorrow and that is enough. We can talk about anything but dont need to. We have a lot in common and enjoy just sitting there not talking or talking for hours. It would have been hard to make it in the last 15 years without her.
There are my daughters/friends. Yes my daughters are some of my best friend friends. We can talk about anything. Well let me clarify that...one will talk about things that another one wont and the other way around. So we each have our own unique relationship, but they are really my best friends along with being my daughters. So they arent just blood but friends by choice.
That brings me to my mom who has become a very good friend. We do talk about anything. My sister doesnt believe it and cant with either of us but we do talk about everything. She does not live close but we talk every night. I know that some day this will not be the case any longer and I will miss that very much. So I take advantage of it and talk and talk every night. She will always be my mom and friend and I will always talk to her even if she cant but she will still be there somewhere to listen.
All of this brings me to another friend. He knows who he is and other of my friends know who he is also. He knows that I would take this friendship to another level if it was possible but it isnt. He is another one that I can say anything to and everything to but he holds back on his side. Maybe it is his situation that he feels he cant say what he wants to. Or maybe it is that he doesnt want to say it and only wants to be friends forever. There have been hints of feelings but then it goes to nothing. No emails, nothing. We have known each other longer than any of my other friends. He knows most of my past and I know some of his past. He can hurt me more than any other of my friends and make me the happiest too. Our relationship is email with a few phone calls in the past. I know what I think friendship means but I dont know what it means to him. Isnt it strange that in some ways I feel like I know him so well but really dont know his mind.
So there you go. It is just a reflection on the different kinds of friends. Think about your own friends and how they differ. All of them are unique and special.
I am grateful for all my friends and their personalities and their relationships with me. I hope to be a better friend to each and every one of them every day. I hope that I am the kind of friend they want. It would also be interesting to see how they would say our friends is and what it means to them. Another thing to reflect on....
Sunday, January 13, 2008
New Year's Resolutions
I usually don't make many because they are hard to keep
1.Get organized - never
2.Get in shape - well maybe
3.Eat better - better what?
4.Spend less - have to do
5.Keep in touch with myself - really trying
6.Keep in touch with friends - sometimes
7.Learn to love me as others do
8.Learn who I am - not what my roles are
So see it is not going to be easy.
I have started some already and others will come in time hopefully.
6. I am going to start by trying to email friends once a month to let them know that I am still here. I spent two hours on the phone last night with my friend in California. I am calling my cousin twice a month. Now I need to work on getting together with more of my friends here.
4. I am gong to try to stay within my paycheck this year and so far out of one paycheck I have $40.00 left for one week. So not doing bad, for me.
3. Had a salad today for lunch and every day last week. I need to get more vegetables in my diet. I have also decided that I don't have to like red wine but why should I worry about it. No one says that I have to drink red wine, I can just really like white.
1. Get organized. Well I end making more of a mess when I start to get organized and then never get done because I cant find what I have put away already. So I think it is a loosing battle.
I know that I will never keep up with John as he cleans his car every week - inside and out - what is that all about??? And there is nothing out of place in his house. mine is at least lived in everywhere. Maybe I should hire him to come over and get me organized one room at a time. I would start in my closet. Wouldn't it be nice to have a closet the size of a normal bedroom. One that has a shelf for everything and a drawer for what is left. Shelves on top of shelves for shoes and purses. But then you would feel like you had to fill it. And then you would have to do the laundry completely. Not do a load of wash and then three days later, rewash it and get it in the dryer. Only get it out of the dryer next week end when you have to dry the load that was washed twice this week. Of course that load is now wrinkled so it needs to be rinsed again. I guess I just need a larger dryer so i can just keep all my clothes in there. Like I do my dishes. By the end of the week, what dishes are still clean are going to get washed again because I am loading the dirty ones in there before the kids come over and because the sink is now full.
2. I joined the health club again but put it off for two weeks so I could work up to getting my mind around it again. I liked it when I was going b4 but now it is starting it again that is hard.
8. I was told that I only know myself by my roles : Wife, Mother, Daughter, Grandmother, Friend, .........
I need to learn who I am and then my roles will fit into that. Such as: confident, passionate, concerned, loving, .... But I have to find what those are in me.
7. Learn to love myself - learn it from what made my dear husband fall in love with me. What was it about me then or what was I then compared to what I am now. Besides, younger, more innocent, thinner, more confident and trusted everyone.
5. Keep working on myself to get better and with God's help I will do that. Isn't this something we should do every day no matter what day of the year it is? And we should do it all the days of our lives.
Okay another one should be to write more in my blog again.
1.Get organized - never
2.Get in shape - well maybe
3.Eat better - better what?
4.Spend less - have to do
5.Keep in touch with myself - really trying
6.Keep in touch with friends - sometimes
7.Learn to love me as others do
8.Learn who I am - not what my roles are
So see it is not going to be easy.
I have started some already and others will come in time hopefully.
6. I am going to start by trying to email friends once a month to let them know that I am still here. I spent two hours on the phone last night with my friend in California. I am calling my cousin twice a month. Now I need to work on getting together with more of my friends here.
4. I am gong to try to stay within my paycheck this year and so far out of one paycheck I have $40.00 left for one week. So not doing bad, for me.
3. Had a salad today for lunch and every day last week. I need to get more vegetables in my diet. I have also decided that I don't have to like red wine but why should I worry about it. No one says that I have to drink red wine, I can just really like white.
1. Get organized. Well I end making more of a mess when I start to get organized and then never get done because I cant find what I have put away already. So I think it is a loosing battle.
I know that I will never keep up with John as he cleans his car every week - inside and out - what is that all about??? And there is nothing out of place in his house. mine is at least lived in everywhere. Maybe I should hire him to come over and get me organized one room at a time. I would start in my closet. Wouldn't it be nice to have a closet the size of a normal bedroom. One that has a shelf for everything and a drawer for what is left. Shelves on top of shelves for shoes and purses. But then you would feel like you had to fill it. And then you would have to do the laundry completely. Not do a load of wash and then three days later, rewash it and get it in the dryer. Only get it out of the dryer next week end when you have to dry the load that was washed twice this week. Of course that load is now wrinkled so it needs to be rinsed again. I guess I just need a larger dryer so i can just keep all my clothes in there. Like I do my dishes. By the end of the week, what dishes are still clean are going to get washed again because I am loading the dirty ones in there before the kids come over and because the sink is now full.
2. I joined the health club again but put it off for two weeks so I could work up to getting my mind around it again. I liked it when I was going b4 but now it is starting it again that is hard.
8. I was told that I only know myself by my roles : Wife, Mother, Daughter, Grandmother, Friend, .........
I need to learn who I am and then my roles will fit into that. Such as: confident, passionate, concerned, loving, .... But I have to find what those are in me.
7. Learn to love myself - learn it from what made my dear husband fall in love with me. What was it about me then or what was I then compared to what I am now. Besides, younger, more innocent, thinner, more confident and trusted everyone.
5. Keep working on myself to get better and with God's help I will do that. Isn't this something we should do every day no matter what day of the year it is? And we should do it all the days of our lives.
Okay another one should be to write more in my blog again.
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